We lost our previous son at 20 weeks back at the end of March, and tried so hard to get pregnant again. We’ve been through so much and felt like nothing could tear us apart but sadly, something has.

Everything was all good, or so I thought. Let me start by saying I’m not a fan of social media, all I have is Instagram and I basically use it for memes and cute pictures of animals 🤷‍♀️

So I’ve known that my boyfriend, well ex, has Facebook and I never felt the need to go stalk him or anything like that. It’s just social media right...

My mom says my BF popped up in her “People You May Know” thing and she was going to his page to add him 🤦‍♀️ well she started going through his page just to make sure it was him because he doesn’t have it as his real name on there.

The things she read made her not able to sleep and made her actually throw up.

He apparently lives a whole different life on Facebook. No indication of having a girlfriend/significant other/etc at all, in fact goes out of the way to make himself look as single as possible. Posting very sexual things, vulgar things, girls commenting back sexually what they would do to him. Posting statuses telling girls to DM him nudes. Sharing pictures of girls saying he would, in simple terms, fuck them all. Bragging about how good he “eats pussy” and shit. There’s a few statuses I don’t even want to post on here because, just wow. I’m still in disbelief.

I’m like wow. He’s not even a sexual person “in real life” anyways. If I talk nasty to him he gets uncomfortable and asks why I’m so sexual.

There was soooooo much on his page that my mom didn’t even want to tell me. But honestly. If you see your daughter is madly in love with someone she thinks is such an honest, loving, loyal and committed person, do you tell her what you see or not?

She waited days to finally bring it up because she knows how my anxiety is already. She didn’t want to hurt me but didn’t want me to find out another way.

A part of me wishes she didn’t tell me. But mostly, I’m glad she did.

I’ve put so much into this man and stayed by him and only had eyes for him.

The crazy thing is, he is trying to take the heat off of him and talk shit about my mom being on his page 🤔 Mind you...My mom has done even more for him than his own mother and looks at him as a son. If it wasn’t for her and her support, he’d be facing 20+ years right now.

My mom had no reason to dislike him or try to start shit between me and him. She just couldn’t believe what she found.

I don’t understand how people live a whole different life on social media. His response to everything? He portrays a different life on Facebook to try to go viral. Like WHATTTTTT?!?!?! Apparently people share and like all the nasty shit he posts and he thinks he will go viral from it one day. But that shit doesn’t add up at all. He refuses to own up to anything even after the screenshots my mom sent me. Denial. Completely. Trying to flip it on me and my mom. I’m sorry for such a long post but I really needed to vent as I’m completely crushed. He always made it seem like his Facebook was him basically talking basketball and joking around with the boys.

Here I am pregnant with our rainbow baby boy. 🌈 After all of the heart ache we went through losing our first, I never thought this is something we would’ve gone through. I guess it’s over now. 😔 Just me and my baby.