Baby that never was

One year ago today I got a positive pregnancy test. I was terrified but very excited. My daughter had just turned one and I was totally ready to have another. My husband was excited but scared. When I showed him the positive test while holding our daughter we both hugged and cried.

Today I am oddly feeling alright knowing that my world is still just my husband and our daughter. I miss the baby that I never got to hug or kiss. I know he is my son and even though he never breathed on his own, he was here and so very loved!

We have been TTC since our loss, without success. Maybe we will have a special gift at Christmas from our angel baby.