Devastated

So as I’ve said before I’ve been trying for baby #2 since April and we’ve already lost 4 precious angels so far. This was my first cycle since the last loss and my fiancé asked me if we conceived that I’d surprise him with it for Christmas I was sooo looking forward to doing so but at 14 dpo yesterday I was still getting all bfns but I kept telling myself maybe I ovulated later than I thought but sadly I just got up to use the bathroom and aunt flow decided to ruin the day. I’m devastated but trying to stay positive, my afs have become verrrry regular and I always ovulate exactly 14 days after I start my period so I’ll ovulate on the 18th and Christmas Day I’ll be 7dpo. I know it’s a long shot and people almost never get a bfp at 7dpo but I’m praying for a Christmas miracle. Please keep us in your prayers that we’ll get our forever rainbow baby for Christmas.