POAS addict 😖

I'm a POAS addict. I have been testing probably from about 6 dpo (I know) sometimes twice a day, the closest I got to seeing anything was yesterday, and it was so barely there it probably wasn't. Here I am, 15dpo, 1 day late....and no tests left...🙄🤦🏼‍♀️ not only that, I need the toilet, having some mild cramps, but I'm so terrified of going in case the 🧙‍♀️has arrived! Why oh why, do we do this to ourselves? Saved my FMU this morning so as soon as I can I'm going to go get one, assuming AF hasn't showed up. Need to know, I need to get my life back...spend far too much time on glow, Google, mumsnet....🤞🤞🤞