Not sure

Feeling overwhelmed and depressed.

My whole pregnancy I was a high risk and I was always dealing with a cheating spouse. Before our daughter was born. I talked about going back to work and my spouse kept telling me I think you should stay home and so on. So after having the baby I realize my spouse was right I should stay home with her and just enjoy it. Here we are 4 months later...mind you I do the shopping,cleaning,take out two dogs.cooking

Kids took baths, older kids did homework and such. Total 3 older and the new baby. Well my spouse leaves at 7 am doesn’t come home sometimes until 8 or 9 pm Tuesday it’s 11 pm. But when my spouse is home there is no communication, I’m doing whatever with the kids and he is in his office. (Drinks) I try to say hey wanna do something. He always tells me he is busy. He doesn’t even bother with the baby or the other kids. When he is home I make sure he has breakfast and coffee. There’s times I don’t shower for days or I’m just over tired. One day I tired to sleep in and later that night he yelled at me for it asked me how many times today did I take the dogs out and then bitches because I slept in (2 hours) last night I was being woken up to slamming doors at 12:30am and he comes up here flipping out at me because one of the kids left a light on. He went to his office and started texting me telling me I’m a “housewife” who sits on her ass all day. I don’t do anything around here it’s always him. I don’t train the dogs and so on. Truth is I do and I try so hard. It’s like I’m a married single mother..I feel I’m being mentally abused. He always calls me names puts me down has people believing I’m a bad person and he the hero. He told me he leaving because he isn’t going to live lower then his standards are. I can live here I have to pay the bills and so on. I’m tired of this has been going on for a few months now. I think he might have someone else again. I don’t understand why we get told to stay at home but then get put down