First year ever feeling like I’m dreading Christmas

I love Christmas and spending time with my family. But it’s the money aspect that all of the sudden this year is giving me a little anxiety. It’s like the older you get, the more people kind of expect from you. Well not expect, but you kind of know what I mean?

Maybe it’s because my family is the type to go all out on Christmas. I really wish they wouldn’t even spend so much on me. Usually I go all out on them as well, but before this year I never had a problem with that.

Maybe it’s because I can’t even bring myself to buy myself nice things lately, I’ve been very strict about saving this year.

Am I being selfish by feeling this way? Or is it a feeling a lot of us get?