Resenting my friend...

One of my close friends and I found out we were pregnant 2 days apart, about a month later I miscarried and no matter how hard I tried I couldn’t help wishing she would too, I know that’s so bad. But now I can barely talk to her and I know it’s not her fault but everything she does and says indirectly annoys me, I really can’t help but just resent her no matter how hard I try, even though she did nothing wrong, even though it’s not her fault I miscarried.