stressed, discouraged, depressed 😭💔

Another month of disappointment 😢💔 We have been trying for two years and every month waiting becomes more and more painful. I'm starting this week in fertility clinics and it's really stressing me. Every month, I tell myself that I had to do something wrong with life so that it does not happen. Am I the only one to be out of breath and think that you are dysfunctional?

I seriously think to consult a specialist, I need to talk. I have the heart in thousand pieces. I am not even able to be happy for my friend who has just given birth and other people in my family who are still pregnant.