I had my first miscarriage...

At 5w I started spotting and at 6w I started bleeding. And yesterday I found out that I had a miscarriage between 7-8 weeks. I went to the doctor for bleeding and they saw a gest. sac, went back a week later (yesterday) and my uterus was completely empty. I had a rough couple of days last week because I feared that’s what was happening. I took 3 days off work because I was an emotional wreck.

But something positive came out of it all. I have come to appreciate what I have even more. I’m so thankful that my first pregnancy (my almost 2 year old) went perfectly. I’m appreciative that I get to love and spoil my daughter longer. I’m thankful that I didn’t have any complications with my miscarriage. And I look forward to the day that I get to welcome my rainbow baby. I don’t want to dwell on the baby that could have been because I will drown myself in sorrow. So instead, I’m going to celebrate the baby and life that I have!

Don’t get me wrong, I’m broken. My heart is aching and I can’t stop thinking of what could have happened. But I have no choice but to stay strong. I just hope that I’m not too scared to try again in the future.