Epidural, c-section, natural?

I need advice! I am someone who has extreme anxiety when it comes to health. I am 25 weeks pregnant with my first and need to start looking at my options. Anxiety has always been the worst for me. I am scared of having a heart attack, a brain anurism.. I am more scared of these things than actually giving birth. But I know they are not the reality. For someone who's got anxiety... If you've been through it. What would you recommend? Here I have the choice for c section. The epidural scares the crap put of me. And the best case scenario that I'd love... If I can calm my thoughts.. Would be to give natural birth without epidural while.. Yes... Squatting. I'll let gravity help me on this one. Without judgment please, what do you think?