How To Forgive Him

4 weeks ago I found out I was pregnant with twins. Apparently, two weeks ago, my boyfriend started sexting with other women, 3 that I know of at least, on Kik. I found out bc he was flirting with one of them in a semi public forum we both belong to and it tipped me off. When I confronted him, he admitted he had been talking to other women and for how long. We fought pretty viciously (not violent, just a lot was said) on and off for the last day or two, with one calm conversation to end it. I’ve spent time away, I’ve talked to him, I’ve talked to family and friends, and I honestly want to try and make it work. I want to give him another chance. He seems genuinely remorseful and willing to change. I believe that in time, we’ll get stronger again.

My problem is that I’m so fucking sad it’s breaking me and I’m worried about my babies. The stress and anxiety and depression are all affecting them, and I feel even more angry at him all over, for putting the three of us through this.

How do I begin the healing process? How do I come to terms with what happened, and how do I move forward? I’m devastated that he did this, and he knows it. He’s trying to do whatever he can to make me feel better, but tbh I don’t think he can right now. There are too many questions and not enough answers. I love him desperately and he’s wanted these babies since the day we met. (Unplanned pregnancy, but we’re both crazy excited) I want to try and be a family again, I just don’t know where to start. Please, any advice?