Never thought this would happen

We’ve only been married a little over a month. Had I know he did this the week before we got married I would’ve married him. He told me two weeks after. He was with someone else like slept with them not once but fucking twice...I’m trying to move past it and work on us. But he says he just wants to stay best friends but like we’re fucking married. You’re supposed to be my husband and love me unconditionally. We’re planning it for 2020... that’s when we move back to Texas. I packed up my entire fucking life and moved across the country to be with him. I seen a future and he thought he was ready. I can’t tell anyone what he did. And to make matters worse he told me he loved her. And that’s when the divorce got brought up. So here We are about to go home for Christmas when both sides of our family will ask hows life going and I have to pretend everything’s okay. Don’t get me wrong we have our moments where everything is great and it’s fun. But sometimes I look at him and my heart breaks because I have so much love for him and he doesn’t feel the same. And I feel like we’re counting down until he leaves me. I have nothing. And no where to go. I don’t know how I’m supposed to do this...