I don't feel that writing everything down on here is worth reading to someone else, but I really need someone's input. It started late October when I went camping with my friends. It was a family trip and so their closer neighbor Isaac was there. Since he was are age we hung out with him and the other boys and that's when things got real. I already knew I liked him but we've never been so close or talked. He was already kinda drunk, myself only a beer in. We ended up having sex that night but he didn't get to finish because we woke everyone else up. From there we had sex three more times: one Saturday and two on Sunday. Sunday was the first day he came in me (I'm on the pill). About a week or so after we had sex three times on a weekend and he came in me all times then. Two on Sunday and one on Saturday. Now I'm pregnant and Isaac is blocked. Long story short, during the camping trip he cheated on his current girlfriend (that I had no idea about) and he's an aggressive guy when he doesn't get what he wants. He'd choke me until I couldn't breathe or just pinch my skin, demanding I'll do what he said. I was scared of him all in all, but now he is blocked and I'm six weeks and two days with his kid.

I'm seventeen and will be eighteen in July, graduating by the end of May. No one but one of my friends know and I have a lot of problems. My mom doesn't know so I've been taking my birth control yet (I should stop that right?), I have to do things like clean the cat area... My eating is hard to fake... There is just so much but I can't get in to see a doctor or get things I need without her knowing. If she finds out I will be kicked out, already getting kicked out when I'm eighteen (it's a rough history in this family). Any suggestions...?