Am I a piece of shit or bad GF....

When I first met my 10 months current BF I fucked things up a couple of times....

Third time I saw my BF ( We were still dating) I slept with a guy and he found out the condom, I lied to him and he kinda believe me...We stop talking and after Vday we reconnected.

When he went out of town we were still dating and I was trying to meet with some male friends (6 years of friendship) just to go out and party, nothing else with a group of people of course.

On that trip he told his mom I was his girlfriend went we have only dated a few times and had sex once. Not even a month of dating.

So the other night I posted on IG something he took it so personal and when to check who have given a like ( male friend likes) took screen shots of some of my male friends and males I grow up with and asked me who they were and told me to delete him ASAP !! Not to like their pictures or other guys pictures period. Told me he was going to move out soon and not to worry about it.

Then he bring up my past... Told me he didn’t know who I was and what he have gotten his self into. He doesn’t want me to have any male friends at all. Yet I coughed him one time sending DMs with this girl on IG she was sending him winky faces and blowing kisses emojis, he didn’t show me the text when o asked him and told me it was just a “friend” and turned the table and started talking about my pass.

My point is... I never talked, flirt, hangout or see any other man since we got serious. Never cheated on him. Somehow I’m still the bad guy just because of the two times I fucked up while we first started dating.

I even asked him to move in with me ( which it was my apt at the time). He didn’t helped much and now that we live with my aunt an we have a 30 mins drive everything bothers him or isn’t enough. Whole point was for us to move there, fix his credit, save money and buy a house but I can tell he’s not happy. I’m always cleaning, cooking and doing laundry let me just say this I am a full time housewife and on top of that I have a FT and PT job. I send him cute messages and tell him how much I appreciate him when he does something for me or us. I don’t feel appreciate it, pretty or wanted anymore I fell like I’m always fucking things up between us and making things worse to the point that I have to stay quiet and bottle things up. I feel like I’m

carrying with everything in the relationship and I am exhausted.