I just want to talk about my job idk if I’m looking for advice or just to rant but anything is welcome. I have anxiety so making any change is scary for me but especially if I think I’m letting someone down or people or whatever. Well I work for this truck stop in my town and it’s a really good easy job. It’s just so stressful. Way more than I expected. My manager is the type to be in a great mood and then she’ll freak out on you over the smallest thing and talk down to you in front of everyone (customers, employees, anyone except when higher ups are around) but when she’s nice she’s super nice so it’s hard to like say anything because she’ll freak out make you feel like nothing and then be super nice like it didn’t just happen. Anyways, I caught on to the job a lot faster than others and have been there a little longer (about 7 months) than most of the other people. My manager has told me several times she doesn’t know how she would run the place without me now. I plan on moving in the early summer so she knows I’m not there forever but I’m just really wanting to switch now to something I’ll be happier doing. I have depression as well and have been in such a great mindset for a while now so happiness is a huge thing for me. I just have this pressure from her and the company always telling me how good I am at the job and everything but it’s to the point where this job adds majorly to my anxiety from the pressure and expectations and I just don’t know if Im being selfish thinking it’s too much and I should stay at this job because it pays well ($11-$12/hr depending on the shift) and they appreciate me for the most part. I’m just tired of being expected to do everything, not get paid for it even though I’m doing manager jobs, and all the added stress as only a 19 year old. I just don’t want to quit earlier than I said and she hates me from then on. 😕