I got married back in May, had a miscarriage in June, my husband became abusive in September and I left in October. Not to mention he had been cheating that whole time. My husband is an HSV2 carrier, he’s never had an outbreak. He waited to tell me until after we had sex for the first time.

I just got home from the doctors office, they said that there’s a 99% chance I have HSV2. It’s like the icing on the cake.

To make matters worse, I am supposed to see my best friend next week. Here’s the catch, he and I used to date. We figured out after many long conversations post-separation from abusive ex-husband that we still have feelings for each other. He is only going to be home for Christmas since he’s stationed over seas. I want to be safe and not risk giving him anything. But I’m also worried that when I tell him that he won’t want anything to do with me.

I know it’s probably not rational, but I just feel disgusting. I feel like there’s a giant sign on my forehead that reads : “DANGER, POSSIBILITY OF HERPES, STEAR CLEAR!”

I don’t know what to do.