What should I do?

I allowed myself to be played with numerous times. The first time he broke up with me he said it was him not me, two days later we pretty much picked up where we left off but without a title. Two months after that he would go ghost on and off. March of this year we made it official again. Everything was good until September he broke up with me again. We started back talking in October but he went ghost at the end of November and I haven’t heard from him since. Part of me feels like sending him a text about how I feel but there’s no use. I tried reaching out before and he didn’t respond back. My feelings are just so hurt that he couldn’t tell what he wanted and what he didn’t. I felt like he wanted something more causal and not serious. Before we ever started dated we had known each other for a long time (we went to middle school and high school together). So I thought he would be more open about his feelings, but I guess not. I’ve been crying for the past few days realizing how stupid I was and still am because I’m hoping that he’ll call or text me soon. How should I go about this situation?