SMA carrier

I found out the other day that I’m a carrier for Spinal Muscular Atrophy. I’m a scared out of my mind. My husband is getting tested on Monday but the unknown of it all coupled with the fact that if my baby girl has it...she already has it and there isn’t anything we could have done to stop it. I know I shouldn’t worry until we find out whether or not my husband has the gene but has anyone else gone through this? I know what the odds are of him being a carrier and what the odds are of one of our children having it. We have a one year old already and I just look at him and thank god he’s healthy and happy. But this also scares the crap out of me. I can’t stop crying.

Sorry for such a long post. I’m just freaking out and my husband is no help, he just keeps saying everything is fine. And I feel like it is but we don’t know.

Edit: today is the day my husband gets his blood drawn. This waiting is killing me and my husband keeps telling me everything is okay 😞 thank you to everyone who has read or commented.