I need some advice. I was single since 2013 the man I was with cheated on me and got the girl pregnant so I dropped him. Then he realize back in 2016 what he had, and tried to chase after me. But it turned out not what I dreamed of. he ended up passing away in Jan 6 2016. We was suppose get back together thet day he was coming to my home town. I still wasn’t dating nor taking to anybody. I finally gave it a shot and tried to date again. So I had went on tagged. But let me back track just a lil but Iv been cheated on every relationship that Iv been in and I was abused in one when I was 17. I was raped when I was 14 years old in my high school. So I do want you to keep this information in mind, and you will see why. Now it’s already hard for me to trust men as it is because of my past. So when I was on tagged I mean this guy. He lives in a different state then me. And Iv done a long distance relationship before but he ended up cheating on me. So when we finally swap numbers I was still scared to even try to date again cause I didn’t want to get hurt. I don’t ask for much. I just want to be loved. So We talked for months. We feeling each up and you know liking each other. So August comes and we get together August 12 2017. We falling for each other talking on the phone bout our future and us being together. FaceTiming all the time. But we did have some bumps in the road. May I wasn’t talking much. Some stuff going on in my life at the time but I would talk to him a little bit. We want a baby together. We said that we want a girl name Brooklyn and if we have a boy we would name him after my boyfriend so he would be jr. The vibe over the months is just not like it use to be. Now we finally a year together and I find out this nov2018 that he cheated on me back in May with his ex and he ended up having a baby with her. The baby is due in January 2019. I’m hurt about it cause this is what I was scared of. I still love him and we still together but I’m not over for what he did. Am I wrong for not liking his baby mother? And I wrong for telling him I don’t want nothing to do with her? I just feel like empty and put on the back buner. Iv cried for so long and it’s like when I tell him how I feel he shuts me out. I asked him if he still in love with his ex and he told me that he love her but he love me more. I strongly feel like he still in love with her. He even took pregnancy pictures with her and he never said anything to me nor planned on saying anything to me about it. He said he still want a baby by me but I know if I leave him he just gone let it happen. What really killed me is that he having a boy and naming him jr. And I felt like that was our thing but not I see that it wasn’t. When I let him alone and gave him space he got mad at me. I really do love this man and he say he wants to have a future with me still but I can’t get over what he did. Can somebody Ive me some insight on my problem??!! My emotions are everywhere. Please help me