I'll never hate you, but i'll never look at you the same no matter how many times i get everything off my chest, it'll never really be off my chest. You hurt me in the worst way. Sometimes i sit in replay all the things you said. You said you would be the best father to our child yet you've only seen him once. You never ask about him. I always sit in ask myself why did you stick around my whole pregnancy if you wasn't going to be there. My doctor said an absent parent is better than a parent that's not really there. I honestly understand. You had me turning against my mom for you. You kept saying she just didn't want us together but deep down she didn't want me hurt again and you promised her you wouldn't but you did, everything she was hearing about you was true. I think God took you outta our lives for a reason you got people looking for you, etc. I just wanna thank you for finally showing me your real colors. Thank you for teaching me a lesson. I could never put someone before my own seed. He'll never be treated like an option or come 2nd to anyone.