Anxiety/depression at 13 weeks

I’m currently 13 weeks and 4 days pregnant. I have a history of generalized anxiety disorder, but have been able to manage these past 2 years with natural mechanisms to manage my anxiety. I didn’t like the way medication made me feel. However, this past week, I’ve been having constant panic attacks and I also feel like I’m getting depressed. It’s to the point to where I will literally cry for 2 hours straight and can’t stop. Even when I want to stop. I called my OB today and they just told me to go to the ER which I did, but there wasn’t much they wanted to do since these medications cross over to baby. What should I do? I already try breathing techniques, meditation, essential oils... I just need some relief and fast because I know this isn’t healthy for my baby. It’s to the point where I’m hardly eating as well, I just can’t help it. 😔 I feel like a horrible mom. Please. Any advice is much appreciated.