My hero and my strength...

My husband has been to hell and back. Diagnosed with rectal cancer in April.

He lost his rectum (ileostomy) poo bag for life

He lost his bladder (ileoconduit) pee bag for life

Recovering from the last surgery has been a never ending stream of setbacks.

Yesterday we came to emergency due to pain among other issues. A CT scan turned up a number of underlying issues that need resolved.

Today he had a tube inserted into his kidney through his back with no pain meds as the meds given did not work. I really don’t know where he gets his strength but it always amazes me.

He is the strongest, most talented, intelligent and kindest person. He keeps wondering what he did to deserve this.

I just want him to have some semblance of quality of life after this and to be able to raise our 17 month old daughter together.

I don’t know why I am posting this today. I guess I’m feeling pretty overwhelmed to be spending the holidays in the hospital with yet another complication.

Our daughter is our strength. She got us through this whole experience to date and makes all the trials and tribulations to come worth it.

Here is my little family. A few happier moments we caught between treatments this year.

And the two of us

Hope everyone is having a family filled happy holiday. Even though this is a terrible time to be in the hospital I am grateful to be with the man I love.