I'm not in love

I'm not in love with my husband anymore. It hurt me when he said he wasn't physically attracted to me after I had our 1st son. It hurt me when he said one of the reasons he married me was because he thought I couldn't financially support said 1st son. We now have 2 boys and it hurts me when I feel like he doesn't want to spend time with us. He'll be home, kids playing in front of him and he's balls deep into his phone looking at hunting gear he doesn't need. It'll be his day off and goes hunting all day while I'm home with the kids, doesn't even bother to ask if I need help or have any plans for the day.

I feel resentful of him for making the executive decision to move our family almost 3,000 miles away from mine and I've made my opinion known. He just brushes me off like "you'll get use to it". I have no one out here, not even a friend and my boys have no friends either. I try but no luck.

My heart hurts and my stomach is in knots everyday. I cry every day and he doesn't notice. I've wanted to make thing work, we've gone to marriage counselling but no luck.

I want a divorce but I dont know how to bring it up