so some of these im not sure if i consider assault or not but here's my experiences

1) when i was in 8th grade i dated this boy and we went on a date to a sports game. we sat where there was nobody behind or next to us with my best friend and another friend. the whole game he was being pretty handsy, which bothered me a bit. like he'd keep grabbing my ass. at one point we were sitting side by side and our friends were on his other side. he had his hand wrapped around my waist but then slowly creeped it up and under my shirt. and first i kinda squirmed and was nervous because A. i had never been touched & B. we were in public and our friends were right next to him. but anyways i let him slide his hand under my bra and he was playing with my boobs and nipples. this kind of turned me on so i dont consider that part assault.

however, at halftime my frienfs bith went to get drinks and encouraged me to stay with my boyfriend. i actually had my first kiss with him, which was exciting, but thennnn things got bad. he attempted to reach down my pants in the back to feel my ass but i said no so he stopped, but then he focused on my pussy. he asked if he could finger me and i said something like "uhhhh i don't know, it would hurt, im too tight". (back then, i was so tight that i couldn't even insert a pinky finger or tampons). however, he started to reach down my pants anyways. i panicked, afraid of the pain that would soon come. i used my other hand to try to pull his hand out of my pants and clearly said "no" at least once, maybe more. he managed to shove a finger inside me and it hurt extremely bad, he was stronger than me so even though i tried to get him away from there i couldn't. he stopped after about 30 seconds because either i said "ow ow ow ow" or my friends came back, i don't remember. i sat there, flustered and in pain, thinking about what just happened. i broke up with him the next morning.

2) 7th grade maybe? i was on vacation in a warm place and my hotel had an outdoor swimming pool. i went swimming once it was dark, my mom sat on the side playing games on her phone. it was just me and two black boys in the pool, they looked around my age. we sparked a short lived friendship, talking and swimming around. however, they started to get flirty real fast. the chubby one said that i had good DSL for a white girl (dick sucking lips) and i laughed along and joked about it with them. however, then i felt someone's hand graze my butt underwater. i brushed it off as an accident, but was a little uncomfortable now. they asked me to go to the bathroom with them to either suck their dick or maybe they wanted more, idk. i declined obviously. after that i felt someone fully squeeze my ass, pissing me off. i go "who did that" and they both literally pointed at eachother. i was pretty uncomfortable but for some reason agreed to give them my snapchat so i wouldn't be bored and had someone to talk to later. i left the pool asap. later that night on snapchat they asked to play truth or dare and i reluctantly accepted, but chose truth to be safe. they ask "what color panties are you wearing" i immediately block them, disgusted as hell.

3) this summer on a cruise i took an edible while hanging out with my friends i met in the cruise's teens club. we were all in the hot tub. once it kicked in, i was giggly as hell but wayyyy higher than i ever get from smoking. one of my guy friends asked if i wanted to go hang out up on the top deck of the ship, i said yes. we cuddled in one of those big couch beds. there was no one on that deck because it was midnight. all was well until another guy i met came and joined us. he literally laid between my back and the wall (i was cuddling with the other dude so i was on my side). we talked for a bit, and they both knew how high i was. sometime during that talk the dude behind me started fingering me. he had probably been doing it for at least a minute before i noticed. only reason i never noticed was because i had such a strong body high that everything was numb. i freak out, and go "wait youve been fingering me?!" and he kinda chucked. this whole situation was pretty gross, especially since it felt like some weird ass threesome that i did not want to happen, but i was too high to do anything, i couldnt even lift my arms up i was that fucked up, and they knew that. the boy behind me asks if it's okay that he's fingering me and im like "um i guess" because i was too high to care. luckily, he had to leave a few minutes after so it was back to just two. this is when the guy i was cuddling with made a move on me. he tried to make out with me even tho i told him i hate making out. he got on top of me while kissing me and was DRY HUMPING ME. In my head i was thinking "ew ew ew please let this be over with". luckily, he nutted his pants (i think) and stopped. i said i had to leave. the next day in the teens club i was faced with both of the guys. although i was crazy fucked up that night, i remembered every detail. the guy who fingered me avoided me, and the other guy, the dry humper, talked to me about it saying "at least i was nice enough to not have sex or finger you like ___ did." (tbh, he did verbally declare that night that he would not finger or fuck me when i'm not sober, so he was kinda true, but he's still a shit person). i basically was super hostile toqards him for the rest of the trip. he tried getting with all of my cousins who came with on the trip and i made sure he fucked off and didnt try to pull the sale bullshit on them.

soooo yeah those are my experiences with assault/harassment. i'm lucky to say that none of these experiences have scarred me or made me super upset. i'm pretty strong (not saying people who get upset about these things arent) and i learned from what happened, making sure that i only give my time to men i know care about me and wouldn't ever pull any of this shit.