I don’t want to have sex with my husband anymore.

I really just don’t want to anymore. He expects me to have sex with him but doesn’t treat me the best all of the time. Lately we have been fighting so much that I just don’t want to even touch him or him touch me. But he expects me to be loving all the time and sexual when he wants and complains when I don’t. He is trying to recover from a porn addiction so I know it makes things more difficult for him when I don’t want to sleep with him. Even when I do have sex with him he still gets angry a day later about something so small that literally is nothing. Yesterday he threw his ring at me and told me he didn’t want to spend Christmas with me because I told my sister I cleaned out my sons toys yesterday and didn’t mention that he helped me. He has this constant delusion that my family thinks he doesn’t help me with our kids and that I’m always talking bad about him but that’s not true at all. I am also pregnant again and his behavior is horrible and it’s stressing my body out I cry so much more than I laugh because his behavior is erratic and uncalled for. He also criticizes me over stupid things like not parking straight and tells me I’m not thinking like I’m stupid or something. He really is changed so much and he wasn’t like this when we first met and we got married earlier this year and ever since he’s just been different. He’s so unsatisfied with life no matter what. And He’s really just angry for no reason. I don’t want to leave but he’s going to leave me with no choice this is toxic and I can’t let our kids see this kind of behavior as normal. Our one year old doesn’t talk yet but I’m kinda glad because I’m embarrassed by my husbands behavior and don’t want anyone to know and I know my son is even tired of it all to. Here is it christmas morning and I’m still depressed over our fight yesterday because it was just uncalled for and ruined a perfectly good day and I don’t even understand why he was so angry over something so small that didn’t mean anything. I tried to talk to him after and tell him it can’t happen again because it’s going to far and I can’t handle another abusive relationship and I don’t think he thinks I’m serious because I’m pregnant with his second child and he knows I love him. He says he doesn’t understand his behavior either and feels bad but doesn’t listen when I tell him it has to stop.. don’t know what to do anymore. He says he wants help but we can’t afford it. I love him and it will break my heart if I have to leave him he’s the father of my beautiful babies and I know this isn’t him something is going on inside. 😭