I just need to tell somebody

I once got talked into sending nudes to a boy when I was in year 5/6 age:10&11 he also showed them to someone I had a crush on and it caused him to make remarks like ‘you sent some to him why can’t you send some to me’ and the same boy would come up to be in school and squeeze my breasts even though he had a girlfriend who was in my friendship group, oh and he also threatened to post them over the internet after an argument.

I got called frigid because I didn’t want to kiss a boy after less than 5 hours of us being together. But ended up kissing him because he made me feel bad.

Last year I went on holiday and the boy living next to my aunt got locked in a bedroom with me (all the adults weren’t home) and he kept asking for kisses and more, even when we got out he still wouldn’t leave me alone. He was 17 I was 14.

I was recently in a relationship and as I was walking upstairs in school my bf came up behind me and lifted up my blazer to look at my bum, harmless, I know but it still annoyed me. During this time a different boy would make comments like ‘you have the boobs of a 30 year old’ in front of a few of his friends and also touched them at least 3 times.

And since I was 12 (I’m currently 15) my older cousin (3 year gap), molests? Me whenever there’s nobody in the same room, I’m not really sure what to call it, he says things about my body, moans and grabs my boobs, bum and other ‘areas’. I always wear hoodies and sweatpants when he visits just so I can feel more secure. One time he even came into my room at night and started feeling me up AFTER I told him to get out and when I got upset he started to act clueless. I used to verbally tell him to stop but he never listens and now my anger makes me resort to violence and I end up hitting him but the last time it happened he said he likes it when I hit him. Once I’ve accidentally whipped him with a charger cord after he touched me because it was the closest thing to me and I had to tell my brother that he was just annoying me. I could tell my parents but I don’t want to seem like a victim and if I tell my friends they will probably tell someone like an adult. I’ve been trying to lose weight just so I could get smaller breasts (I’m a size 34dd) because all they seem to do is pose as objects for people to do whatever.

Sorry this was so long I just needed to put it out.