This is long. I need help.

I posted last week about emotionally abusive relationships. I thought our relationship was getting better. We had a damn good date night and then the tables turned. I said "thank you babe", "I'll pay", "I'm having such a good time" all night. Because I was. He turned the car around and said I'm so ungrateful and a fucking cunt. He told me "you will shut the fuck up and you won't speak", the whole way home. He said my depression is a joke and if I really feel this way then I need to get help and we might be able to talk. He said he was done with me and anyone who wants to date and me a think I'm a queen is retarded. WHY am I wanting to still love him. WHY am I in this situation. I know I need to stay gone, but ladies I love him. Please help me.