My almost first time😭

So I’ve been talking to this one guy for about 6 months, we became friends. We talked ALOT on the phone, texting, snapping etc 🤷🏽‍♀️🤷🏽‍♀️ he was flirting alot and that made me uncomfortable cuz he ain’t was single.. but I mean that didn’t stop me flirting back

He had a girlfriend (we became friends with this girl last summer) who’s the reason I met this fine ass guy, anyways they had been about 2 years togehter and I never thought about him more than friend cuz he’s in relationship and I’m not about that life 🙄🙄

They brokeup recently for good because this girl cheated twice..

WELL this fine ass nigga and I planned to go out AS FRIENDS (or that was what I thought😌) and this mf tell me his phone is dead and it was cold outside and we were outside late and he lived 1 hour way from where I live so we decided to go our place.

At first we were just talking and joking and then suddenly we did our thing 💦 but we didn’t fucked cuz it was 4am on a schoolnight and I didn’t want to wake up my lil brother. Anyways I am soooo regretting not getting dicked for the first timee🍆 I KNOW I got time but I guess I’m just a horny bitch idek

BUT at the same time suspicious that am I just band-aid to him. Should I just stop things and let him be single and whatever else he wants to do or should I just go with the flow and watch how things going🤷🏽‍♀️

Oh yeah and I invited him to come over at my place on new years eve cuz my mom will be working and my brother would be out but I guess that’s a busy day for both of us and it’s killingggg me 🙄

Plus sidenote: this girl who I became friends with last summer aint my close friend or anything, literally we see eachother rarely.

I’m sorry if something was unclear, yall can ask anything😌😌