I've been married to my husband for 10 years and we've talked about having a baby since before we were even married, we already had names and everything. We have never actively ttc but if it happened great!...we say our future childs name almost everyday in regular conversation & we signs all the time we just know it will happen in Gods timing. I've always been cool about it because of my faith, I know that what's for me is for me and it won't pass me by.. I have never been jealous of another woman for being pregnant or having children. I have more than enough nieces and nephews that I love on and give right back to their parents. The few associates that I have are all single mothers, struggling etc. meanwhile hubby and I are living our best lives traveling the world & enjoying eachother and can move around freely without a crying baby, right? That's prob how people see us but we're ready...we've been ready! but it wasn't until September when AF was 8 days late, then decided to arrive at my new friends baby gender reveal party that I broke down. I knew for sure I was pregnant! If that wasn't bad enough at the party this same pregnant new friend told me that she was naming her baby my future childs name depending on the sex! (I told her my future baby name 2mos prior & she acted like it was already an option) I felt so attacked that day but I held my composure. Thank God it was the opposite sex because I would have snapped. The years have really flown by I wanted to be pregnant before 30, I'll be 31 soon. & two very young members of my family 18yo just had her 2nd baby. & 17yo just announced that his girlfriend is pregnant again (she had an abortion the first time) This is what frustrates me, people that don't even want their babies, aren't even trying, or just not able to raise a child are getting pregnant. Huh?

In October we actively started ttc. I'm disappointed in myself for letting all these years go by I don't even have a doctor I've been taking Geritol & tracking my Ovulation. I'm praying for the biggest blessing that 2019 can bring. Please touch and agree with me in Jesus' name.