I know, I know I should just be happy for all the people around me getting pregnant and everyone having such an easy time conceiving. I have a classmate who was always an awful person I hated him I loathed him in every shape and form with every inch of my body, he got married about a month before I did and his wife to put it nicely is completely awful. She is the person that goes on Facebook and rants about how she never has money and that her husband should be getting paid more than minimum wage if he’s working night shift and that they are being treated unfairly by everyone and that they have lost their apartment because of unfair circumstances when we all know it’s because they never paid their rent they constantly ask churches around my area for money ask other people and this woman goes online and sales items and has people Venmo her money and then she keeps the items she was going to sell but also keeps the money that was Venmo to her and they just announced that they were having twins not one but two babies and that it was pure accident and that now she’s really mad that they only get paid minimum-wage well her husband she doesn’t have a job and I understand that not all people who have babies or are trying to conceive are in the best financial place I’m not judging on that aspect I’m judging on the fact that they have money and I know for a fact he gets paid more than minimum wage because he works at the same place my husband does and, she sits there and buys make up and Victoria secrets and is always wearing products that you would see from high-end dealers and her nails are always done and she always gets her hair done she pampers her self but they won’t pay rent and I’m just thinking to myself where as in I’m a great financial state to be having a baby and I have a house with three bedrooms and I am ready but I just can’t conceive I should be happy for them but I’m angry . But they are not the only People that I feel this way towards I really think I have a problem I have a cousin who has had six children and all six of her children are either placed in foster care with her parents with her sister or with her aunt, and she is due to be induced the 31st and I just don’t think it’s fair that she can have all these babies and be fertile Myrtle over here while they all get taken from her or she just gives up on them and she continues to be impregnated may I remind you that none of these babies have the same baby daddy and she is in no place to be having children but still continuously one after another keeps having babies I know I shouldn’t be mad I know it’s not my place to judge God can judge God’s place is to place a baby where he sees fit but I just can’t help but wonder why can’t I have one when all the people. Around me who aren’t suitable to be parents are becoming them. Sorry for my rant I know I might get a lot of backlash for this and a lot of negativity and awfulness because I do I feel awful for judging I feel awful for feeling this way but I just needed to rant to somebody or something I guess I might get mad hate for this, but I needed to get it off my chest.