Have t gotten out of bed for two days🚦

Sofia

So my bf and i were dating for 1 year. We just went on a vacation and he even got a tattoo w my initials, ik crazy. I took a screenshot of my bf blocked list back and September and one of his ex was not on it (i dont like talking to ex like why) and i took one like 3 days ago and she is NOW on it again and idk how i didnt noticed back then so i asked about it and after a day of excuses he came clean and told me he unblocked her because her mother (hes in a program for university and her mother is one of the main people in charge) told him how shes going to do a radio talk show. He said he was just curious and asked her about it. Im not ashamed to say i have huge body issues ive struggled w for my whole life. To me it felt like wow he must still be interested and blah blah blah. Im torn on what to do, i told him its over but is that too much? I love him so much and these past two days i havent gotten out of bed i feel shit and i wish i hadnt wven looked. Ik he is pretty bad because he came to my house and got on his knees and begged me for forgiveness. Sometimes i let my insecurities run my life and idk if this is one of those times or is this and ok response?