So sad...want to give up

Looking for some kind words and motivation to not give up.

I’ve been crying for the last 2 days.

My fiancé and I are trying for our first baby together. He has an 18 year old son. I’m yet to be a mommy.

We had an MC in September still heartbroken. Been Ttc since July. Im 39 yrs old. My fiancé 21 year old step daughter called us 2 nights ago to tell us she is pregnant with her first baby. I kept a smile on my face and sweet kind words to her and I was fighting back those tears and my sweetheart could see the pain in my face and tears I was fighting back and we got off the phone without making her fell bad or rushed as it was 11pm and we had to work in the morning.

I think a laid there and cried for 30 mins while my man brushed my hair and rubbed my back.

I love this man with all my heart and I want to share my life with him and our child.

I was in a previous relationship for 15 abusive years and wasn’t allowed to get pregnant he didn’t want a baby after we got married and he said my weight made him sick so he wouldn’t touch me.

I’ve wanted to be a mom for as long as I can remember.

Please pray that this is our year. We’d really appreciate it.

Thank you 😊