Miscarriage

Jan. 4, 2019

Today I suffered my first miscarriage. I was 8 weeks pregnant and didn't know. I had taken 2 home pregnancy tests and a test at my Obgyn that all came back negative. Those test we're taken around 8 days after my missed period. So my fiance and I decided I should start taking the birth control pill. After the first 4 weeks of taking the pill I noticed pms signs, but they were actually miscarriage signs.

Right now I have no idea how I feel. I don't know if I'm sad, releaved, angry, or what. I do know that I'm sorry that I didn't know. I am sorry I wasn't able to care for myself properly so that one day I could have met you. I do know that even though I'm not ready to be a mother I still love you. And I promise in the future when I am ready I will do everything in my power to make sure you sibling is healthy. Good bye Evalyn Brown, I hope I can still meet you one day.