Me every single time

Every single time I tell my self.

Dont get your hopes up.

Dont think about til after so and so days.

Here I am. Af due today. Mild cramping.

In my mind:

oh af will be here soon....

but maybe she wont and I am pregnant...

but no I'm not I'm for sure going to start soon..

but I've never had this symptom before af I must be pregnant...

Oh stop doing this you know you aren't...

But what if I am!

Took a dollar store test yesterday. Negative.

Going to try and wait til after the weekend before I test again and drive myself even more crazy.