Please lord help me!!! 🙏🏻

Some days I feel like I’m okay and then days like today, I had a panic attack out of no where driving home from work because I heard that stupid song (beautiful angel) and I literally lost it... I was sweating, I couldn’t feel my hands they were literally going numb, I was feeling dizzy and was hyperventilating I couldn’t catch my breath. Tears were filling my eyes but I couldn’t make a sound except for the heavy breathing and finally I was able to actually cry... a lot! Thankfully I was near my neighborhood and was home quickly... idk how to get over this loss.... I feel like I’m so alone. I know my husband had a hard time but I feel like he’s over it.... I struggle every single day I wake up and think about my baby.... I go to sleep and think about my baby. This baby consumed my life the second I knew of its existence and it still is! I feel like I might really need professional help soon... 🥺🥺