The struggle is real...

We had lunch with DH's sibling today, and DH decided to spill the beans even though we had agreed to wait until afyer our first US on the 24th. I'm torn on the issue. Yes it would be awesome to tell the world that after suffering our 10th loss after Thanksgiving, we are pregnant again and have made it farther than with the last 4 losses. But at the same time it freaks me out. I am so anxious about every little thing with this pregnancy. I just want a healthy little one. The slightest cramps make me worry that something is wrong. Telling people makes it so much more real. I just don't want to have to go back to tell them if something bad happens.