The envious onlooker

To the women/moms who told their families they were pregnant before the 12 week mark-

I am jealous and envious. You had no doubts, no second guessing that something would go wrong and nothing did thank God! But do you realize how lucky you are?

Us women who have had miscarriages and chemical pregnancies sit on pins and needles just to get that first ultrasound and see that everything is okay or our world is crashing down for the first or second, or third (etc) time.

We hold our breath until we get out of the woods and even then we still have reservations. Every single new thing that happens we question if it’s okay, if this is what’s supposed to be happening.

While we are so happy for you and your new bundle being able to announce early we are envious of that.

I myself wish I would have such a sticky baby that I could wipe away all doubts. I wish I could tell people before 12 weeks. I wish I could just not have any worries about something going wrong.

I know this sounds selfish and maybe it is but it’s how I feel. I’ve lost 2 babies both around 6 weeks and it’s been soul crushing. We are still TTC baby #1 but I know I will be so cautious for those first 12 weeks.. especially at the first ultrasound. Baby dust to everyone this year❤️ May we all have sticky healthy babies💕