My husband and I just had our lives flipped upside down when we found out on July 4th his father passed away, my husband promised his father previously that should anything happen to him he would move in to take care of his mother. On July 7th at his father's funeral we lost my husbands oldest brother. Between the loss, living with my mother in-law and dealing with my husbands ex wife for the sake of my wonderful stepson we decided we needed some joy in our life. Something to celebrate instead of mourn. So we decided to start trying for a baby. We've been trying since the end of July. Still nothing. Sometimes I feel like I'm losing my mind or myself. I've always battled depression but this time it's just different. For example I have my husband and stepson to live for, the only ones that bring me any joy anymore.