Okay y’all me and my babydaddy got back in contact last February, after having a big falling out and not talking for a year. He’s actively in our child’s life now but the thing is he’s in mine too.😕

Y’all I haven’t felt nothing for him in a VERY long time, even now we’re friends, talk like friends, everything. But here recently I’ve started feeling things for him again.

To the point where I’m about to tell him I can’t be his friend anymore and we can’t be talking anymore unless it’s JUST about our son, I think he knows it too. It’s so embarrassing, I’ve done so good, and we’re such good friends that I don’t want to mess it up. But he brings certain things up too that I feel aren’t appropriate which doesn’t help, and sometimes gets a little too involved in my life.😅

He has a girlfriend that’s one other reason I want to back off, we’ve became friends, I respect her a lot, she loves my son, and she’s been so good to my child’s father, and has just helped him become better than he used to be.

I just don’t want to lose his friendship, but I also don’t want to make myself confused and hurt again, I literally sit here and can’t wait for when he calls me again. He gets off of work at 3:00-4:00a.m. And we sat there and talked for nearly two hours until he was tired (supposedly he tried calling his girlfriend first)

I don’t think she knows about how much he talks to me and it just feels wrong. As much as I want to be selfish it’s not okay and I’m not that kind of person. The lines are starting to get blurred and I just don’t want that to happen. This is the best we’ve ever been, we work so much better as friends. I just don’t know what to do.

I feel like I sound trashy.. He also happens to be the first man I was with relationship wise and intimately, I haven’t been with anybody in awhile so I thought maybe it could be my loneliness driving me to him? Idk. But I’m actually scared I don’t want to mess anything up..

I really need some sort of advice or something. I don’t want to lose his friendship.