Hello ladies. So, I don't even know how to get through this. My husband started distancing himself in August after he found out he wasn't deploying. I figured it was his way to deal with not leaving.. well fast forward to the week after Christmas, I had a feeling since around November there was someone else. So after I confronted him he just put me down and said I was crazy and controlling... I pulled phone records and found a number that was calling him on way home from work, and on nights he didn't stay in our home.. well after calling I got a womans cm, I reverse searched number and looked her up on fb. Well my husband already told her to block me. So I looked up her relatives and found she was married, I wrote her husband and he said he already knew who I was. He had known about affair for a month and actually tried reaching out to me nut didn't have the heart to send the message. I am devastated to say the least. We were married for almost 10 years 13 together and 4 beautiful children. He up and walked out on us leaving us with a negative bank account at christmas and was giving her money and gifts taking from our own children. I couldn't even buy them food or diapers. He is now moving in with this homewrecking whore and I am so sick. He threw everything away for a piece of ass and she ain't all that to look at. Our children are struggling as well. I went from loving this man to not even being able to look at him. I have never cheated, supported him through deployments and his cancer and I still was not good enough.. why? Now he is telling people I left him and playing the sad card for sympathy. How do zi get through this. It takes all of me to peel myself out of bed every morning. I cry so much. I have lost 32 lbs since Thanksgiving. Anyone been through this. I have no parents as they are dead and I feel so alone. I did file for divorce as I can't deal with this. He cheated on his last deployment when I was 8.5 month pregnant with our 3rd son. I need support. TIA