I truly am terrified. My parents weren't the very affectionate type, and my dad was boderline abusive when I was little. Fast forward to now, I'm a very broken person. I can be so mean and cold sometimes, and I hate people. I love being by myself, and I'm not good at all whatsoever with interacting with family. I get very easily irritated by any loud noises, I enjoy my peace and quiet. I'm so scared of being mean to my baby for things that are out of its control. I'm so scared I'll get irrationally angry at the crying, just like my dad used to. I'm scared of becoming my parents. Does anyone else ever feel this way? Does it go away after seeing your baby for the first time? Thank god for my amazing boyfriend. He is so aptiwnt and kind with me, and assures me he won't let me act thay way. He's an angel for being so understanding.