Finding the changes in my body hard


I feel like the only one that’s terrified of how their body is changing. And I’m so angry at myself for feeling this way..

I’ve literally been in a diet for over a decade and have always struggled with my body image. I grey up in that generation where mother madly bodyshamed their children.

Before falling pregnant I was actually ok/happy? With how I was looking (in the ‘before’ photo I was still 190lbs) I felt fit and strong. But the pregnancy has been a huge struggle physically and now I feel like not only do I look bad, but I feel physically awful.

I don’t want to feel this way. I’m scared I’ll feel this way forever. I know it’s stupid and genuinely doesn’t even matter how I look but I still feel this way.

There is actually no point to my post. I’m just feeling down.