Being REAL with myself.

I've come to the realization all my dreams of wanting to be a mom again are over. I have been told I should be thankful for the two girls I have. I am very thankful for the two girls I have. I am very hurt for the two babies I lost as well. We have been trying ttc for a year now. After a year of trying, I am exhausted. From checking my temperature, to not wanting AF, to taking a million tests. Some with vapor lines, most BFNs..going through chemical pregnancies, miscarriages, ectopics..... I have seen so many beautiful woman become pregnant so easily they go from trying to conceive for 1 year to having a baby the next. What's harder is when you don't have anyone that relates to you. I guess I just came on here to vent because I literally have no where else to go. #AllAlone