please don’t judge me!

My SO and I have been together since 2015 and we were both very young and dumb at the time, we cheated on each other a few times and blah blah blah. Fast forward a couple year’s we finally settled down, faithful to the max. Our relationship is great now. We’ve been trying to conceive since last year with no luck, and i’m just super hard on myself because way back when we were ^^^young and dumb^^^ he got a girl pregnant and she ended up aborting it cause she was married. I just don’t find it fair that now that we’re better and happier and so in love and actually TRYING, nothing is happening. I feel like my body as a woman is failing us and it scares me because I know he wants kids and I want to be able to give him that but so far i don’t think it’s gonna happen..☹️