Reminiscing on what could have been

After TTC for 9 years , I got 3 strong strong positives! Little did I know just as quick as my happiness came it was gone. I've never got a positive pregnancy test in my life up until these. The happiness I felt in my heart was unexplainable . but deep down I didn't get excited as I thought I would have been for the reasoning of I didn't believe it. When it popped up immediately I said to myself "wtf" "hell no" "this can't be happening" I rushed downstairs to tell my fiance and he was still asleep but he was feeling like it was too good to be true too. I decided to just test the Next day and what do you know..... NEGATIVE . then AF came and I was so distraught . hubby gave me this look like " damn" he was so sad. And that really broke my heart. It was all over his face. The reason why I won't give up is because after TTC for so long and finally getting a positive makes me have faith even though its hard to. I didn't get a positive until I started taking Geritol. So this cycle I'm going to relax , take my Geritol and wait for my rainbow baby 💞