New To PCOS and Confused- Need Support

Rachel

Last May.. I decided to come off of my birth control. I am 24 years old and I have been on birth control since I was 13 years old. There was no specific reason for stopping my birth control other than I didn’t really like the way it made me feel. So I stopped my birth control. My period came about a month late but I just attributed that to me trying to get on my natural cycle. After that I got my period regularly, but somethings started happening. My skin started to get really oily and I started to get sever acne on face(chin and forehead) and chest and back. I started to notice hair on my upper lip and other places it had not normally been. Then it happened. I didn’t have a period in October or November. However, in December I started my period but I went ahead and scheduled an appointment with my gynecologist to talk to her about all this. I googled all of these symptoms and it seems like I’m a pretty classic case of PCOS. So I go and explain all of this to my doctor and she doesn’t really say much (she’s always in a hurry and never wants to listen) I did explain to her that my husband and I were interested in trying to conceive soon and I wanted to to make sure everything was ok since I was missing periods and all. (At this point my husband and I have always used birth control and condoms so we don’t really know if we can conceive naturally or not) She just scheduled a blood test and that was it. So a couple of weeks later the lab call me and tell me that I have elevated levels of testosterone. In my head that just confirmed to me that I had PCOS so when I went to my next appointment with my gynecologist I had a list of questions I wanted to ask her such as: Do I have PCOS. What causes this? Am I doing something to cause it or doing something to make it worse? Can it be treated? What can I do to help? Will I be able to have a baby? What do I do if I’m ready to conceive? Am I at risk for a miscarriage. So I came prepared and honestly I was really scared and just wanted some information. I thought my mom with me and when my gynecologist walked into the room and saw my list of questions she just sighed and rolled her eyes. She said I had elevated levels of testosterone but it was no big deal. It happens to women all the time and she is going to put me back on birth control end of story. First of all I have so many problems about this. First she is just trying to mask the symptoms not try to get to the root of the problem. ( like do I have an insulin issue) Next why am I getting back on birth control if my husband and I would like to try to have a baby?! When I asked her if I had pcos she just said ughhh yeah probably. I’ll schedule you an ultrasound. But that’s all she said about that. When I questioned her about the birth control situation she said that I needed to get on birth control and spirolactane for 3 months to get my hormone levels right and then after 3 months stop both medicines and start trying immediately. Although I had hesitations about this ( like I thought it takes a while for birth control to get out of your system?) I decided to trust her and so what she says. When I went to pick up my prescriptions I started to research spirolactane and it says that it could cause fetal harm. So if I was to get pregnant I don’t want this stuff still in my system and cause harm to the fetus!!!! So I just decided not to take the birth control or spriolactane. My husband and I are just gonna try naturally and see what happens. I just feel so hopeless and alone in this. My doctor gave me no support and made me feel bad for even asking questions. I’m scared that I’m never going to be able to have a little baby of my own which has always been my dream. I am trying to trust God’s plan on this but I really need some support. If anyone has any advice for me please let me know!