I am dealing with my very first miscarriage. It was so scary I don't even know how it even happened I was and still I'm shook. I don't know how women deal with this.. I am just so heart broken I bought a stupid twin stroller already and everything bc I have one already and I was so excited and I am so heart broken it has been a week and I thought I was getting over it kinda and then the stupid stroller I bought came and I yelled at my poor mail man who delivered it to my door saying I didn't want it and cried for a long time after that.. I did leave I'm sorry letter for my mailman and a 5$ gift card to Starbucks. He said he forgives me and it's okay... but I feel so stuck in this loop where I feel like my body betrayed me and I'm mad at that and hurt. What did you guys do.. how can I move on... my husband constantly tells me he wants head or sex and I don't want it and we got into a huge argument.. where he thinks I do nothing all day besides watch the independent baby. Help me move forward.. I feel so trapped...