I need to vent

So last couple months iv had baby fever an I pray every month for my period not to show but she keep coming back! I know I may sound impatient but I really pray it happened but on the other side of this my bf of 7 years make comments about me getting pregnant then turns around an says we are not ready.. I do believe it best to wait but baby fever is killing me.. pray for me in my inpatient an uncertainty I am expericing!