A lot of people have been hating on my relationship, due to the age gap. I know I shouldn’t be listening to what others have to say, but it’s rather hard whenever they are talking bad about the man I love deeply. Dillon, my boyfriend, is 18. I myself, am 15. Yes, our relationship is legal and yes my guardians and his mother are aware of the relationship and fully supportive.

Him and I have been together since December 2nd of 2018, yet it feels like I’ve been in love with him forever. I’ve experienced rape, cheating, and physical as well as emotional abuse in my past relationships. I have a very hard time managing my trust, yet Dillon has proven to me that I can trust him with my life. Him and I are told by our friends and family that we are the textbook definition of a perfect couple.

At first, Dillon was iffy of the relationship, since it would be considered a homosexual relationship, and he believes he’s 100% straight. He is not into the male genitalia, nor would he date any other male besides myself. He chose to just ditch labeling himself. He claims that he loves me, like, really loves me. He doesn’t want to put a label on it.

Over the weekend, my guardian allowed him to sleep in my room with me, as long as the door was open. I was really surprised at it, seeing as I’m a minor. He was VERY mature, respectful, and responsible no matter what. I have been sleeping shirtless ever since I came out as transgender, and he was well aware of it, and didn’t mind it one bit. Both of us ended up sleeping shirtless. He had his arms wrapped around me both nights, and wouldn’t let go until he woke up in the morning.

People constantly call him a pedophile, a monster, disgusting, and many other rude terms, and it really gets to both him and myself. We are both very mature and aware of our actions and doings. The terms he’s called really hurt him, which as well hurts me. I don’t like seeing him in pain, especially when its from other people judging our relationship when they don’t even know the concrete details of it. Why can’t I just love who I want to love?

You don’t choose who you love. Love chooses for you.

(Photo below was taken on 1.21.19)