*Please do not comment unless you have something nice to say and are unbiased*

I have PTSD from being in the military. Because of this, my body shuts down (passes out) anytime I have anything unnatural happen to it. I have passed out with needles, I have passed out with baby moves, I have passed out with removal of stitches, I have even passed out in an eye exam. When I wake, my body goes into fight stage and I try to literally fight off anyone I do not recognize around me. The last time I passed out, I had a seizure.

I am scared, because I do not think that my body is going to handle delivery very well, because of this and I am terrified that it is putting my baby girl and myself at a terrible risk. I am going to elect to have a c section with GA, because I believe it’s the only way to make sure everyone is safe. I know that this is major surgery, I know that the recovery is supposed to suck, and I know that I will not be able to hold my child until I wake up. But, I believe that all those things are small compared to the safety of my child and myself.

I know that it is seriously difficult to understand why I would elect to have this done to me and I know that it is difficult to understand why PTSD can cause medical reasons as to why I would prefer a c section over a natural birth. But, I would really love if I got some support through this. I often feel terrible, because people don’t understand PTSD and I often feel really really low about myself and right now, I’m feeling really really low. I just want us all to be safe...